Finally

I finally have lyrics for the song I've been working on for forever. I'm tempted to post them, but they're sort of cheesy. But then again, all lyrics are cheesy without music. I'll just record the song later.

And I feel kind of bad because...well, the one song I've written that I really love, and I wasted it on my father. It's not really bashing him or anything. It's more like an, "I hope someday you'll know how it feels to have someone push you away and to be afraid that you might never heal," thing.

And then goes on to describe that it wasn't enough to push me away, he had to pull me back, too. And then push me back away again. I probably would have grown up as a normal kid if he could have just left me alone. Now I have a fear of phones, people (males in particular), and serious trust issues. It was like I was caught in this violent undertow, drowning. I didn't have any choice.

But at least now I have the choice to run away. I always was one for fight or flight. And I'm not a particularly confrontational person. I've mentioned it before, right? "She Runs" is the translation of my name. Go figure, yeah?